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Friday, March 10, 2006

Im not going to be posting here anymore...

Bye.



Oi...I feel so helpless. I hate seeing someone I care about hurting so much, and I can't do a darn thing about it, I can't even find some comforting words...

All I can do is pray, and wait, and hope...

It's strange, as of late it feels like I've sort of taken the role of Johns big sister so to speak. Which is strange since we used to date, and even stranger since he's older...but really, even though he's older, I'm mentally more mature, even he agreed to that. Even when we we're dating I always had that feeling like I was ment to sort of look after him...Its incredibly clear now that we were never ment to date. Especially now that I've gotten so close to Paul. All the little bits of anger I had for John over our break-up are gone now and I really hate seeing him hurt like this...

~long sigh~

I'm thankful for Paul though, and in some part, thankful for my break up with John. its funny, I can look back at all the things that happened, and trace it all up to bringing me together with Paul.

I need to figure out how to get more members on my forum...I also need to do some school work...

BYEEEEEEEEEE

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Thursday, March 09, 2006

Okay...Yesterday was not a good day for forums....

First, my words get torn apart on CTF, and I was not upset people disagreed with me, i was upset that my words were being twisted, over and over again...then John gets blantently attacked on runelords....

I almost left all the forums I'm on and deleted half the people on my list...I actually blocked a few people, more then a few really. That was the first time I've blocked people, other then like the random annoying guys that add me...

But, a few people asked me to calm down, and wait, to not be rash and give it some time. I feel better this morning.

I'm going to meet resistance in my life, and I won't be able to just run away from it, so why run from it now? I'm going to run into non-believers who tear my words apart and try to bring me down for my faith, and I'm going to have to stand strong, so why let them beat me now? I'm going to find people who disagree with me completely and are not polite enough to agree to disagree, who are going to twist my words to mean things that they don't. So I decided to stay on CTF, and just remember that it doesn't matter how others act, and if they are rude.

As far as runelords...well I think last night was totally uncalled for...but hey, people are unforgiving, people are vicious, people are not understanding, people hold grudges. This world is cruel, and I can't run from it. They look for easy targets.

No, I do not condone Johns previous actions, but I see him trying to change, I see him trying to repent. ~shrugs~ I've forgivin him, and I'll continue to forgive him. If he continues messing up there might come a time when I will stop trying to help him as much as I have, but I will always forgive him, and all others...
 
My got me a new pair of jeans! Yay!

Well, not sure what else to say. C ya!


Wednesday, March 08, 2006

 Matthew 19:23-35

 "Therefore is the kingdom of heaven likened unto a certain king, which would take account of his servants.

 And when he had begun to reckon, one was brought unto him, which owed him ten thousand talents.

 But forasmuch as he had not to pay, his lord commanded him to be sold, and his wife, and children, and all that he had, and payment to be made.

 The servant therefore fell down, and worshipped him, saying, Lord, have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

 Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt.

 But the same servant went out, and found one of his fellowservants, which owed him an hundred pence: and he laid hands on him, and took him by the throat, saying, Pay me that thou owest.

 And his fellowservant fell down at his feet, and besought him, saying, Have patience with me, and I will pay thee all.

 And he would not: but went and cast him into prison, till he should pay the debt.

 So when his fellowservants saw what was done, they were very sorry, and came and told unto their lord all that was done.

Then his lord, after that he had called him, said unto him, O thou wicked servant, I forgave thee all that debt, because thou desiredst me:

 Shouldest not thou also have had compassion on thy fellowservant, even as I had pity on thee?

 And his lord was wroth, and delivered him to the tormentors, till he should pay all that was due unto him.

 So likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not every one his brother their trespasses."




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